It's been a few weeks, but I feel like I am making progress working on me. I know that self-help books/audiobooks seem to get a bad reputation, but I do think they can be food for thought. Most recently, I was listening to an audiobook by Beth Moore called “So Long, Insecurity: You've Been a Bad Friend to Us”. This book truly spoke volumes to me. I can honestly say there was much in that book (things I’d rather not admit) that reminded me of the past me, I mean years past me. I did not realize that I came across as a complete lunatic, but listening to stories so similar to my own that I have no doubt that I did sound like a lunatic. It was a rude awakening to hear some of those stories, but to be honest, in this struggle to be a better me; it is a truth I needed to hear. I actually discussed a situation that happened over seven years ago before we even got engaged. One of the things that I love about my husband is that he was understanding and took what I said in stride. He was appreciative of me bringing up the subject allowing him the opportunity to explain how he was feeling when I reacted the way I did.
Do you ever read or listen to something and realize that you were that person? I am thankful that I am not the same, but realize that there are many things I’m still insecure about. I feel more positive though that Beth Moore used Biblical references that I can refer back to on my own to prevent me from feeling so insecure. I am growing and it’s a good thing.