Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Try It Tuesday, November 29th

So sorry that I did not post last week, but with preparations for Thanksgiving and such, I did not get around to trying something new with my smoothies or anything else.  So my original plan was to continue with the smoothies, but today I tried something new and decided I would blog about it instead.  We purchased this macaroni and cheese from Costco.  

Side note here, I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE macaroni and cheese.  As a small child, I could tell if it wasn't Kraft Macaroni and Cheese.  Honestly, I know it frustrated some of my family greatly.  After my son came along, we switched from the "blue box" to Velveeta Shells and Cheese.  I've tried some of the generics and they are not all bad.  But I have really been trying to move towards real food.   What first attracted this to me?  I would have to say the price and amount in the box.  I've bought the organic options before and they are expensive.  After looking at the ingredients list on this product, I like that it has wheat macaroni.  The Nutrition Facts are as follows:

While the cooking process is a little more tedious than the single serve packs of Kraft Easy Mac or Velveeta Shells and Cheese, but I have to say I do like it quite well.  Overall the microwave time is less than than the Easy Mac or Velveeta Shells and Cheese.  Typical cooking time for those is 3.5 minutes vs. 2.5 minutes for this one.  You just have to do 1.5, stir and then cook for another minute. It is a little thicker than I expected, but I did enjoy it greatly.  Overall, I would buy this again.  

Monday, November 28, 2016

Memories of Mom, Nov. 28th

Today's memory of Mom is more recent.  I am so thankful that God blessed me with my sweet husband so that I could have this time with my Mom before she left us.  To honor traditions, we had lunch the Friday before our wedding and my husband did not see me again until I met him at the alter.  I spent the evening at my Mom's house preparing the centerpieces for our wedding reception with my cousin.  I would not trade that time for anything in the world!  One thing I recall Mom saying as we were nearing my wedding day was that if I really loved her, I'd have someone else do my hair.  Just a side note here, I had only had 5 other people besides my Mom do anything with my hair over my entire life.  I could not imagine anyone else taking charge of my hair on that day.  We went through several different ideas together and finally settled that my hair should be down.  Little did I know at that point that she knew I had a veil coming that I was not anticipating, Mom loved keeping little things like that a secret.  She teased and curled my hair into submission and then sprayed it with the hopes that it would make it until the end of the reception.  I am not certain that anyone else could have done my hair the way that she did as she had all sorts of knowledge about my hair and it's tendencies.  She also decided that it was necessary for me to wear pantyhose in the middle of the summer, but I digress.  

My wedding day was not like many others that I know as our wedding took place at the historic village, Chestnut Square in McKinney, TX.  I got dressed in The Johnson House, which is where we are when this picture was taken.  Then walked over to The Dulaney House where I hid in the house until it was time to meet my future husband at the alter a/k/a the front porch of the house.  My Mom helped me stay out of his sight since it's bad luck for the groom to see the bride before the wedding.  My daughter also helped me to keep an eye out.  My wedding march took place from the dining room door to the front of the front porch.  Another side note here, there was a farmers market going on that weekend as well, but they were kind enough to steer clear where we needed to be.  Once the ceremony was over and pictures were taken, which were lots of fun, we moved to the reception location, The Bevel House.  My Mom, being who she is, made sure that I greeted each guest.  Although, to be honest, I had to get rid of my shoes not long after arrival to The Bevel House.  I was wearing what I referred to as my "big girl shoes" and they were making my feet hurt.  I do not think that my Mom would have been able to give me up for anyone who might have loved me less.  I am so thankful for that time with my Mom.  I have such fond memories of that day and many days.

Monday, November 21, 2016

Memories of Mom, Nov. 21st

Happy Monday!  This memory may be a rather mundane one, but it popped in my head this morning and I felt like it was necessary to share.  While my Mom didn't go to church when I was a youngster other than on holidays, she made sure that I made it there if I did not stay the night with my Nanny.  We had a ritual of sorts on those Sunday mornings.  We got up early enough that I could get ready for church and we would go by Jack in the Box and grab a Breakfast Jack and orange juice.  We would sit in the church parking lot and eat breakfast and talk until time for me to go in for church.  It may not seem like much, but those were some great mornings.  Honestly, I cannot seem to eat anything from Jack in the Box these days.  I suspect that as I have been trying to eat more real food, it seems that my tastes have changed so it no longer tastes good to me.  

I was reminded again this weekend how much I enjoy spending time in the kitchen and cooking for my family.  I can still remember those times when my Mom would get in a creative mood and she would make things that I would never have imagined.  She would make beans and then she would add things to it and we could have different things in different ways.  It may turn into chili that we would use for baked potatoes or we would make a variation of Frito pie.  Oh this were good times and I miss those times with my Mom.  This Thursday will be my first Thanksgiving without her and I will miss her terribly, but I will appreciate the traditions that my family and I share, some of which have been carried through our family for years and some are revival of past traditions.  I am so thankful for these times with family and nothing can replace those.

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Try It Tuesday, Nov. 15th

I have decided to try something new, pun intended, and right now, I'm trying to find a way to decrease the amount of time that I am spending putting together my green smoothie each morning.  I am open for suggestions.  

I am starting with a suggestion that I read in a blog about someone that freezes their smoothies.  I prepared 4 smoothies on Saturday.  Two were mixed antioxidant fruit green smoothies and two were cherry green smoothies.  The first thing that I figured out is that it generally takes longer for my frozen smoothies to thaw.  I have found that it has been taking about 2 days for them to thaw completely.  Things I noticed about the one I had this morning are that it was not as flavorful as the fresh ones.  It also had clumps in it.  I decided to run it through the blender again and added a couple of chocolate chips and a little more ginger.  It was still not as flavorful, but it was tolerable.  I will try a different way next week.  I've seen different ways to speed the process on various different blogs.  While I may not try them all, I'm definitely going to find something that will speed the process for me in the mornings.  It may be as simple as I need to prepare it the night before.

Monday, November 14, 2016

Memories of Mom Monday, November 14th

This journey learning to live without my Mom is not easy.  Today's memory isn't one of my own, but is a story that I heard my Mom tell numerous times.  

I have always been a morning person.  Mom used to say that I would come to her bedside and pat her to wake her up telling her "I hungy" in the wee hours of the morning.  She would tell me that she and my dad would lower my baby bed to the lowest setting and they could never figure out how I managed to get out of my bed, but I would every night or very many nights anyway.  When I was old enough, Mom taught me to pull the drawers out so that I could climb up and get a bowl.  I would do this in order to make myself a bowl of cereal.  I remember climbing up those drawers to get my bowl.  I was so tiny back then.  In fact, not much bigger than I am in this picture.  I think it used to make Mom crazy because I was always a morning person.  I still am, although now I am not quite as bright-eyed and bushy tailed as I was back then.  I am so thankful for the memories that I have of my Mom and those times.  

Monday, November 7, 2016

Memories of Mom Monday, November 7, 2016

On October 29, 2016, my life changed forever.  My Mom, Linda Dobbs Williams passed away at 8:24 p.m.  In an instant, I lost my best friend, my confidante and my biggest support/fan.  My Mom was so many things to me and for me and I will miss her dearly.  For some of you that have known my mom/me for awhile know that while my Mom had many pictures displayed, she had many snapshots that were placed into an old hard sided suitcase.  I found that it helped a little bit to go back through her pictures.  There were many memories that I shared that were captured in those pictures.  There are so many memories in there, but also memories that are not captured in those snapshots.  I thought that I would take Mondays for the next few weeks and share some of those memories.  This serves two purposes for me.  The first is that it gives me a chance to share some wonderful memories of my Mom and allows others to share them as well, but the second is that it gives me an opportunity to relive these memories when I go back and read them.

One thing that I will share today is simply that Mom always told me not to leave or hang up the phone without saying "I love you" because you never know what the next minute or the next day or the next week or the next month may hold until you talk to or see that person again.  That held very true for me last week.  The Friday night before my Mom passed, my husband and I took Mom some Popeye's popcorn shrimp, red beans and rice and biscuit.  She had not been eating much at all, but she let me feed her some.  She ultimately ate a little less than half of the popcorn shrimp, a few bites of the red beans and rice and a few bites of the biscuit.  I knew that things were not right with her because I could not get her to verbalize any answers to my questions.  She did respond to me before I left and told me that she loved me several times and told my husband as well.  It saddens me to think that I may not hear her say those words to me again, but I take comfort knowing that she did not suffer and that I respected her wishes.  When I answered the call on Saturday late morning, I knew the call was coming and knew what the doctor was telling me.  The fact of the matter is that tomorrow is not promised and we need to hug our loved ones and tell them that we love them because you never know when it may be the last time you have that opportunity.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Take Control Tuesday, October 4th

I completely realize that I have been hit and miss for quite some time.  With everything going on with my Mom, which is still ongoing, and family stuff, taking time to blog hasn't been top priority.  I have to admit that I am excited about the changing seasons.  I am looking forward to some soups and, honestly, getting back on plan.  After surgery last year and then all of this happening with my Mom, I have realized that I truly need to figure out how to meal plan and meal prep in a way that works for me and my family.  I am feeling a little better about this now than even just a few weeks ago.  I realized that I am excited (did I just type that?) about meal planning and trying new recipes with my family.  This is truly an opportunity to focus what I am eating.  My crock-pots definitely get a workout during this time of the year as well.  So many tasty recipes on Pinterest to try and ways to help me get organized, which I plan on making good use of for both my office and my home.  I need to start making use my Weight Watcher membership.  I haven't been checking in at any meetings for awhile and I need to fix that.  

My "take control" goals for next week:

1. Track
2. Meal Plan dinner

Friday, August 12, 2016


This has not been my best week; I’m not even going to lie.  I will likely go weigh in tomorrow morning to see just how bad it was.  However, I have decided that I would take this opportunity to re-focus on my weight loss efforts.  I feel like I’m recycling the same pounds over and over again and this cycle needs to stop.  I was listening to Year of Yes: How to Dance It Out, Stand In the Sun and Be Your Own Person by Shonda Rhimes.  It brought some things to the forefront of my mind including how important certain things are in my life and how I need to stop being afraid and focusing my mind on all of the “what if” and “could be” options that swirl in my brain.  Bad habits like soda have been creeping back in to my workday.  I have decided, honestly, that I am going to try to focus on what I CAN do this week.  My goals for this week are to:

I will pack a lunch/snack each workday.
I will change up my breakfast at least 2 days out of the coming week.
I will make sure I get 10,000 steps 5 days out of the coming week.

I will track my food.

Wednesday, August 3, 2016


It's been a few weeks, but I feel like I am making progress working on me.  I know that self-help books/audiobooks seem to get a bad reputation, but I do think they can be food for thought.  Most recently, I was listening to an audiobook by Beth Moore called “So Long, Insecurity: You've Been a Bad Friend to Us”.  This book truly spoke volumes to me.  I can honestly say there was much in that book (things I’d rather not admit) that reminded me of the past me, I mean years past me.  I did not realize that I came across as a complete lunatic, but listening to stories so similar to my own that I have no doubt that I did sound like a lunatic.  It was a rude awakening to hear some of those stories, but to be honest, in this struggle to be a better me; it is a truth I needed to hear.  I actually discussed a situation that happened over seven years ago before we even got engaged.  One of the things that I love about my husband is that he was understanding and took what I said in stride.  He was appreciative of me bringing up the subject allowing him the opportunity to explain how he was feeling when I reacted the way I did. 

Do you ever read or listen to something and realize that you were that person?  I am thankful that I am not the same, but realize that there are many things I’m still insecure about.  I feel more positive though that Beth Moore used Biblical references that I can refer back to on my own to prevent me from feeling so insecure.  I am growing and it’s a good thing. 

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Transformation Tuesday, July 12th

First off, let me apologize that it has been so long.  Secondly, I just want to see if anyone else has experienced this as well.  For some time, I have been feeling an urging to be a better me.  I have been reminded of hobbies that I used to enjoy and things my Nanny did (sewing, canning and such) and just the way she was when I was younger.  I know she was raised in a different time than I, but even when she and my grandfather weren't in agreement, she still respected him as the head of the household.  To that end, I have been working on ways that I can be a better me.

I have recently been reading Darlene Faye Schacht's The Good Wife's Guide: Embracing Your Role as a Help Meet.  If you are interested, she also has a blog called Time-Warp Wife.  I will be honest, while there are many things that I will not be implementing as I am not a stay at home mom, I have found several things that I am going to try to implement slowly.  One of which is adding scriptures in places that I will see them.  I am also going to try to complete my tasks with more joy.

This may not have been the transformation that you were expecting and yes, I am still on my weight loss journey, I think that this transformation will ultimately assist in my weight loss as well.  What are you working on transforming?

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Food for Thought Thursday, May 5th

I was going through my blogs on Bloglovin' and ran across a blog post from Coffee Cake and Cardio entitled Focused on the Wrong Thing.  I have to say that I was a little blown away and it felt like she was in my head.  Although I have not been working with a behavioral nutritionist, I can definitely relate to what she is saying for sure.  

I have been doing Weight Watchers for a number of years and, honestly, I should have hit goal a number of years ago.  I managed to successfully lose over 40 lbs on Weight Watchers when I first joined, but with the stress of job changes and planning a wedding, I re-gained my weight.  I know that when I was a small child (and I do mean small since I was wearing toddler size clothing when I started school) my focus was not on food for comfort.  Unfortunately, between my second grade and third grade year, everything changed.  I am not overly fond of change but my school district decided to close my school down.  Even as a young child, I became extraordinarily nervous about changing schools and food became my comfort.  Prior to that time, even as a small child, I was able to eat pretty much anything and as much as I wanted because I stopped when I was full.  There is so much information floating around and it can be somewhat overwhelming to decide what is the best course of action.  There are definitely some things that I truly do not agree with respect to Weight Watchers, but I seem to be finding my way.  I truly try to steer clear of fake foods and artificial sweeteners and while it may not fall in line with what Weight Watchers teaches, I prefer to have full fat cheese.  I have found that I have a different level a satiety when I eat full fat versions and don't require nearly as much.  Aside from that, have you looked at the labels on those fat free foods?

While Susan Powter's plan may not have lasted a lifetime, there are things that she said that have stuck with me.  "Read the label. Read the label."  Reading the label on things has changed my perspective on some of the foods I previously ate.  Let's be honest, when you remove the fat, you have to put something back in to keep the texture and taste.  

I prefer the real foods approach to things these days and I am trying hard to listen to my body to tell me that I don't need more food.  After the month of April and my mom being in the hospital for most of the month, my eating has been a little off.  My focus for the month of May is to try to eat like a regular person and get back to eating on a schedule vs. when I can.  There's still much I need to figure out about my body, but figuring out my body is the only way that I can truly reach my goals with the hope of not regaining it.  This is definitely a process.  I will support you and wish you well in yours, no matter what the journey, if you do the same for me.  We're all in this together!

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

Weight Loss Wednesday, May 4th

I recently saw this article pop up on FaceBook about The Biggest Loser on the NYTimes webpage entitled After ‘The Biggest Loser,’ Their Bodies Fought to Regain Weight.  Honestly, Danny Cahill was one of my favorite contestants ever.  I hate that he has gained back his weight, but it honestly explains a lot about several of the previous contestants and their weight gain.  I then read the Snack Girl blog about the study.  I have to say I agree with Lisa's statement: "Society also has a long way to go to accept people of different sizes."   As a whole, society tends to frown or look down at those who have weight issues.  From time to time, even I have found myself passing a judgment against people who are bigger than myself.  It is something that I struggle with and I get frustrated with myself for judging anyone even in my head.  

For me, this is a big reminder to myself not to beat myself up over regaining my weight.  I lost between 40 and 50 lbs. before on Weight Watchers and then I gained weight back with the stress, etc. before my wedding.  In order to lose the weight again, I just need to focus on what I know I need to do and make time for workouts again.  To that end, I need to get back to incorporating strength training again.  It definitely makes me really aware as to why there are so many different diets and workouts, etc.  I have said for awhile that you need to figure out what works for you and your body because we are all different.  What works for one person may not work for me or for you, but metabolism is so very important.  I wish you well in figuring out what works for you, but please bear in mind that we don't need to be too hard on ourselves in the process of trying to figure out what works for us.

Friday, April 8, 2016

Faithful Friday, April 8, 2016

So much has happened since I have posted last that I hardly know where to begin, but I celebrated my 45th birthday on Tuesday, the 29th and on Wednesday, the 30th, my mom was taken by ambulance to the emergency room for breathing difficulty and swelling in her legs.  She was diagnosed that Wednesday with congestive heart failure, which add to her previous diagnoses of C.O.P.D. and Diabetes.  To an extent, I walked this road before with my grandmother.

We moved forward with her admission to the hospital.  On Thursday, we were told that she couldn't eat because she was having a procedure.  Hours later, we became aware that her procedure was being pushed to later in the day, so she was able to have liquids.  A few more hours passed and we were told that it was being moved to the following day, so she was finally able to eat late in the day.  On Friday, she was pulled down for her procedure.  When it was over, there were no stents placed but it was determined that the Right Coronary Artery ( RCA ), which had stents placed in 2005, was 100% blocked and the Left Anterior Descending ( LAD ) was 99% blocked.  Her cardiologist wanted a surgeon to review her file to determine if she was a candidate for bypass.  The surgeon said no, he wanted the cardiologist to try to stent first.  We were moving forward assuming that we would have no further issues and the stents would be placed on Monday.  This was not to be.  Sunday afternoon, my mother coded.  Thankfully, the pulmonologist on call was still close by.  They were able to get her on the ventilator and promptly took her down to do the procedure to place the stents.  The placement was successful in the LAD, but they did not attempt to place it in the RCA.   We were finally moved back down to a regular room late yesterday after being in the ICU since Sunday.  It has given me a new appreciation for those who work in the hospital, this includes not only the nurses, but the techs and those in the dietary area taking the order.  It did not take very long to truly understand that if it were not for these quick thinking and responsive staff, I could be burying my mom this week.  I thank God for putting us where He did.  

Where my weight loss goals are concerned, I can honestly say that it has been the furthest thing from my mind.  I eat when I can, but usually only after I have made sure my mom eats.  I have not been to weigh in for the last two weeks.  I am hoping to get away tomorrow morning so that I can get accountability for my last couple of weeks.  I'm going to guess my weight is up, but I'm moving forward.  I don't really have a choice.  I know I need to take care of me and in order to take care of my mom and my family.  Hope everyone is doing well and moving forward with their goals for April!

Friday, March 11, 2016

Move Forward Friday, March 11

I have had a lot of stress going on of late and my food and workouts have been suffering, to say the least.  I had lost 2.2 lbs last week, but gained 3.4 lbs this week.  There is much going on, but I have to figure out how to handle this and move forward.  I do not want to go into 46 (45 is approaching too quickly for me to finish losing the weight before it arrives) being overweight and not happy in my own skin.   This is about me finding what works for me with my life now.  I figured out what worked for me 7+ years ago, but it is not the same now.  I was a single mother with family support and had workout buddies, etc.  Now, I have a husband and children and my mother to take care of and it isn’t always easy to make the schedule work.  I need to figure out how to juggle the schedule.  I am blessed to have a supportive and helpful husband and children, so I am not handling everything completely by myself.  

I have made some big changes for myself since originally starting Weight Watchers, I decided to focus on real food and not fake foods.  For instance, I am not eating fat free cheese and the like.  I am focusing on eating real food and limiting the processed food more.  I enjoy making things from scratch and cooking for my family.  It is just a process for me to figure out all the moving parts.  I’m a work in progress.  Some days I seem to be progressing better than others, but each day is a new day to make it work.  I hope you have a blessed Friday and a wonderful weekend!

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Dear Weight Wednesday, February 17th

I will apologize in advance for this lengthy post.

Dear Weight:

We’ve had our ups and down, literally.  I did not realize how bad things were for the longest time.  Or maybe I did and I just didn’t want to admit it.  You were my protection, my comfort and the bane of my existence.  However, I am ready to break up with you.  We've been together a long time, but I don't want to be "besties" anymore.  For my health and for my family, I need to move forward with removing you from my body.  You are doing bad things to me.  You increase my risk of heart disease, just to name one.  I want to be healthy and live to enjoy many, many years with my wonderful husband and my amazing family. 

Here’s my backstory: I started out as a chubby baby, but turned into a very thin child.  Until third grade when my school was closing and I had to change schools.  Then I gained weight, a lot of weight in a very short period because I was so nervous about going to a new school.  This prompted other kids to make fun of me for my weight.  I had some amazing friends that also moved to the new school with me and made things a little easier for me.

I was overweight all the way into high school.  The low I remember hitting in HS was down to a size 3, but overall, I seemed to stick at 125/size 7.  Here are some things that I remember about losing weight in HS…I wouldn’t eat, but maybe one meal per day and it was whatever I wanted.  I lost weight, but it was short lived and I gained it back when I started eating.  Fast forward a few years, I was a fairly new mom and while I was eating nothing but processed foods, I was cooking at home.  Fast forward a few more years, I was spending about 2 hours a day commuting back and forth.  By the time I got home, I didn’t feel like cooking so we started eating a lot of fast food for dinner and oftentimes for breakfast and lunch most days.  I rarely cooked at home at that point and when I did, it was still processed foods. 

I remember having a conversation with my Uncle and basically telling him that my weight was protecting me.  I was forced into sex by people that I trusted.  In my mind, I believed that if I was overweight I would not be put into that situation again.  This was, however, a struggle within myself because I wanted to have a relationship and to be loved, to have a family, just like everyone else, but didn’t want to let anyone too close to me.  This battle lasted for many years and I finally decided that I would take care of myself if I wanted to be around for my son.  I joined Weight Watchers and met some great friends.  I managed to lose down into the 150’s and was almost at my mini-goal…and then life got in the way.  I lost my job and was not working out consistently the way I had been previously or going to my Weight Watcher meetings.  It definitely changed things.  It reinforced that what I do to lose the weight is what I will have to continue to do when I reach my goal.  There isn’t a magic pill that will make me lose weight.  This is going to take hard work and effort.  I’m not at my goal weight and recently reached a high of over 200 lbs.  I am thankful that I am still learning and haven’t given up on myself or my weight loss journey.  This is a process.  I appreciate those that are supporting me along this journey.  For those that are also on this journey, WE CAN DO THIS!  

Friday, February 12, 2016

Finding Myself Friday: Feb. 12th

Here’s my Friday update: I am down 0.8 lbs. this week.  While it may not be as much of a loss as some, it is still a loss AND the even more important thing for me this week is that I tracked every meal every day!  I am proud of that fact.  I am, however, pondering changing my strength training goals for the moment.  I was reminded this week that I need to have a little bit of wiggle room in the event of an emergency.  My DS15 ran into a car while riding his bike and that was a scary situation, but we wound up spending a fair bit of time in the ER and I had such a headache when it was over.  I do not want to set myself up for feeling like a failure.  At the present, I think I may adjust it for 2 times per week and continuing to hit my step goal, which is still changing from week to week.   I know I need to focus a little more on my food intake in the coming week.   At present, I am 7.6 pounds down from my highest weight.   I am not sure how the meal plan will work for next week, but it will be okay.  I have Monday off so there will definitely be a chance to get in a workout and get some meals prepped.  

Monday, February 8, 2016

Making a Better Me: Feb. 8th

Hi friends!  I hope all is well!  I am excited to share that I successfully managed to track all weekend!  I was not always easy as DH and I had a date night and I had trouble trying to find a way to accurately track what I had, but I picked things that looked to be approximately the same amount of Smart Points.  My primary goal was to track and I did that.  

So a question for all of you, how do you feel about meal planning/meal prep?  I believe I have changed my attitude regarding meal planning/meal prepping and it has definitely made a difference for me.  I may not have everything planned out for each day and I don't think I would ever be that girl, but I have snacks prepared and have an idea of what I am having each day and ideas about dinner.  This allows me to track what I am having and I can be prepared.

Something else I feel good about so far in February, I have hit my step goal each day since Jan. 31st and got in some strength training in 3 days last week.  I am feeling good about my choices and feel like things are changing.  Happy Monday!

Friday, February 5, 2016

Finding Myself Friday, Feb. 5th

So much has been going on this week.  I have been reflecting over what I have done or need to do better.  I know I really need to get more consistent at tracking.  I started out well, but have gotten complacent.  I know what I need to do.  I really appreciate the fact that I am finally realizing that this is truly about my choices.  I think that I need to be more consistent with my meal prep as well.  

I have probably done a little too much this week because my ankle has been consistently swelling at night.  I am still tracking my steps and giving myself a star sticker if I have successfully managed to hit my step goal.  I have been pretty consistent about that this week.

As I stated the other day, I went way overboard with my food over the weekend.  I almost used my "no weigh in" pass last night but decided that I needed to face the scale at my Weight Watchers meeting.  I was shocked, but excited that I didn't gain.  I maintained this week.  I am still at 199.0.  It is definitely time to regroup and refocus for the coming week.  Although, honestly, I feel like I am taking it one meal/snack at a time.  If I can string several of those together, then I will have a good day and several of those means a good week.  One step at a time, I will get to my goal.  Have a blessed Friday!

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Tell Me Tuesday, February 2nd

I took yesterday to reflect over my weekend.  I was determined to do better with my tracking over the weekend.  While I didn’t track over the weekend, I went back in on Monday and tracked everything I could remember that I ate (note to self: the paper tracker doesn’t do you any good if you don’t use it).  I went blew through my Weekly Smart Points and every FitPoint that I had earned.  Finding that out yesterday, I had to change the way I was thinking about it.  I am really focusing on the fact that it is truly my choice.  I made each and every choice for each thing that I ate over the weekend.  I am proud of the fact that I tracked it.  I am also proud of the fact that I have had a Dr Pepper sitting on my desk for 2 weeks now and I haven’t been tempted to crack it open.  You are probably wondering why it’s on my desk and not in the fridge or put out of my sight…it seems to disappear when I put it in the fridge and it has been a test for me.  I will probably soon move it off my desk, but I’m proud of what I have accomplished thus far by not drinking it.  Honestly, I don’t really want to track it either.  For 12 oz. of Dr Pepper, it’s 9 SmartPoints.  Is that worth it?  There are things that I would rather spend my SmartPoints on, so it’s not a good choice for me. 

So, here’s the thing, I make choices every day.  I am in control of my own destiny.  Every choice may not be the one that anyone else would make, but they are mine to make.  I don’t think I realized previously how freeing it was to realize that it’s my choice and my decision.  No one is forcing me to eat badly, it’s totally up to me.  I want 2016 to be my year and in order to do that, I need to make sure that I am making better choices.  If the scale shows a gain on Thursday, then it is what it is and is only a reflection of the choices that I made this week. 

Taking a minute to focus on new goals for February, I am determined to add strength training in some form to three times a week.  I don’t want to just be satisfied with the minimum that I can do to hit my goal.  I need to step it up and believe that I can hit my goal.  I know there will be times that I will get frustrated and I will want to give up, but I want this.  I just need to make time to make it happen.  Happy Tuesday friends!

Friday, January 29, 2016

Finding ME Friday, January 29th

Happy Friday all!  I hope everyone has had a great week!  I am a little late getting this written and posted, but I wanted to check in and let you know how weigh in went.  I lost the 0.8 that I had gained so I am, again, at 199.  I am glad about that.  However, I know that I know that there is more that I can do and need to do.  I am feeling positive about what I have done to this point.  Today, however, I decided to focus on what I can do.  I did a search on YouTube for 10 minute shadow boxing workouts.  I picked one and did it, modifying where necessary since I can’t really do much jumping around right now.  I also did a couple of 10 minute walks that I found on YouTube as well.  I am hoping to add that or some upper body workout in at least twice a week.  I also picked up some paper trackers because while I generally track online, I don’t get online much on the weekend and wind up not tracking.  This needs to change.  

I have plans tomorrow morning so I’m going to have to work my meal planning around that.  I know I can do it and am thinking that I may start some of that tonight.  I know what I need to do; I just need to make it happen.

Oh!  I am feeling pretty positive that I hit my step goal Monday through Thursday and am almost there today, so that will be 5 days in a row!  All those stars on my calendar!!  Yes, I know it sounds a bit funny, but it gives me feedback!  Happy Friday friends!  Have a great weekend!

Monday, January 25, 2016

Making Me Better Monday, January 25th

While I can say the weekend didn’t go quite as I had planned, I can say it was a good weekend.  My DS25 paid us a surprise visit on Friday evening.  Saturday, while we were waiting on Salvation Army to pick up our donations, I made some Mom-lets (they are muffin omelets that I make for my Mom) and washed and cut up some bell pepper (about 9) and made some bread.  It was a busy day, but I feel like I got something accomplished even if it wasn’t as much as I had hoped to accomplish.  My back muscle spasms started up again so I think it’s about time for a visit to my chiropractor.  I did hit my step goal on Thursday and Friday and am trying to hit it today as well. 

I have also made some decisions that I think will help me greatly.  I have been trying to use my Day-Timer more consistently these days.  I have been posting stars on each day I hit my step goal.  I tend to be visual when it comes to things like that so I know it will help.  When I don’t hit my goal, I write down what I did step wise.  I am trying to change the way I’m thinking by focusing on what I have done well instead of where I have failed.  I have decided that it would be a good idea to include some other things on there as well.  This would include anything that I need to make the time for, reading, working out, prayer, etc.  It may seem sort of silly to designate time for these things, but I think it will help me make these things a habit.  These would definitely be positive changes for me and things I want to include in my day to day life.  How do you make time for things that you want to do?

Meal planning/prepping hasn’t gone as well as I would like for this week, but I’m determined to make things happen.  I definitely see a meatloaf in our future.  They are relatively easy to prepare the night before in the crockpot liner and then drop it in the crockpot the next morning.  Tonight I think I am going to try the Pesto, Roasted Red Pepper and Cheese Crescent Rolls.  They are pretty easy to prepare (or it looks that way) and I think they would be a fast dinner for us with a salad.  Here is the recipe from www.twopeasandtheirpod.com:


1 (8-oz.) cans Pillsbury® Refrigerated Crescent Dinner Rolls
1/4 cup basil pesto (homemade or store-bought)
1/3 cup jarred roasted red peppers, drained and roughly chopped
1/3 cup shredded mozzarella cheese


1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees F.
2. Unroll crescent rolls. Place about a 1/2 tablespoon basil pesto, 2 teaspoons chopped roasted red peppers, and 2 teaspoons grated mozzarella cheese in the center of each crescent roll.

3. Roll up the crescent rolls and place on a large baking sheet. Bake for 10-12 minutes, or until golden brown. Remove  from the oven and serve warm.

Friday, January 22, 2016

Finding Myself Friday, January 22nd

This course to find myself is definitely not a direct route, but it continues to move much like my weight loss journey.  I had a slight gain last night (0.8) making my current weight 199.8, but I know I did not do well with my water and all last weekend.  I’m not going to let it shake my resolve.  I know this journey is a process.  To that end, I was watching one of the videos on YouTube from Mind Over Munch talking about “Having a Healthy Relationship with Food”.   This spoke volumes to me and I realized that even when I am not at my goal weight that my habits have truly changed.  I won’t say that I never reward myself with food, but I am trying to do better about that.  I try to portion foods out or have smaller portions rather than tell myself I can’t have something.  I don’t know about you, but if I tell myself that I can’t have something, that seems to be all I want.  I don’t want to live in a world where certain foods are “off-limits” because that can stress me out.  Despite not being at my goal weight, I can definitely look back and see changes have been made.  That leads me to believe that I can make it to my goal weight because I am making lifestyle changes.  What has changed for you since you started this journey?

I know that there will be ups and downs (yes, that may include weight) in this journey, but it is definitely worth it.  I am worth it.  I have gone down the road of losing weight because I haven't eaten or eating and then taking a laxative.  I am a work in progress.

Have a happy Friday and fantastic weekend!

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Working on ME Wednesday, January 20th

Wow!  I have read a few blogs lately that have really hit home with me.  This article in particular: http://www.popsugar.com/fitness/Why-OK-Indulge-While-Dieting-39800209?utm_campaign=share&utm_medium=d&utm_source=fitsugar

This is very similar to negative self-talk vs. positive self-talk, but I never thought about it that way.  Going forward, I believe this is something that will help me.  I have been learning through this journey that this journey is about ME.  I know ultimately that my loss will benefit my family as well, but they can't do this for me.  I have to do this myself.   I know that I will not wake up and the weight be miraculously gone.  It is all about choices.  I can choose to have a slice of pizza and share a tiramisu with my husband and still lose, but each day is a choice.  Each meal I make the decision to follow plan or if I want to have something higher in Smart Points.  I know that if I open a bag of chips, there is a chance that I will binge if I don’t portion it out.  This is one of those things I know about myself. 

I will admit that I have been struggling with the things I don’t think I can do instead of just focusing and doing what I know I can do.  Like I have not been using the pedals under my desk as much as I could be or doing other things that I know I can do.  I have been trying to walk down the hall more when I run to the bathroom.  I know it will come…I’m healing, slowly, but I’m healing.  I am walking better and other people have said that as well.  I have to figure out how to move forward while I’m healing.  Have a blessed and happy hump day! 

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Take Care of ME Tuesday, January 19th

Overall, it was a good weekend.  I had yesterday off.  I did not take as much control over my weekend as I would have liked, but I did get some food prep done.  I feel much better when I am able to prepare for the week and have a plan in place.  I have boiled eggs, carrots, hummus and some fruit that I can easily access for snacks.  Also, I decided I would have a rice bowl.  I saw a recipe for them while trying to plan for the week and I decided to do my own spin on them with what I had handy.  I have 1 cup of brown rice, 1 cup of canned pinto beans (rinsed and drained), 1 cup of canned corn, lettuce and tomatoes with about an 1/8 cup of shredded cheese.  It sounded good to me, so I'm hoping it will be as good as it sounded in my head.  I am also wanted to have some veggie pitas or wraps this week. 

I am really trying to take things one step at a time and focusing not so much on the weeks in the future, but one day or one week at a time so I do not get so overwhelmed.  I know I need to focus on the fact that this is NOT a diet, but a lifestyle change.  I'm a work in progress for sure!  So while everyday may not be the best day, I know I can pick back up with the next choice of food that I make. :-)

I tried a new recipe over the weekend in my casserole crockpot that I received for Christmas.  It wound up so tasty:

1 cup of Quinoa
1/2 cup of Water
1 - 15 oz Can of Black Beans (drained and rinsed)
1 - 15 oz Can of Corn (drained)
2 - 15 oz Cans of Ro-Tel
1 - 19 oz Can of Enchilada Sauce (recipe called for 15 oz can, but I had a 19 oz. can in the pantry).

Place black beans, corn and Ro-Tel in my casserole crock.  In a bowl mix the quinoa into the water and add to the crockpot.  Stir everything together and top with the enchilada sauce.  Cook for 4-5 hours on high or 8 hours on low.  I chose 8 hours on low and we topped with a little shredded cheddar cheese.

This was so tasty and other than the fact that my DD13 does not care for spicy food and I wound up using one can of mild and one can of hot of the Ro-Tel so it was a little hotter than even I would have preferred, but it was so very tasty!

Friday, January 15, 2016

Finding Myself Friday, January 15th

This week I lost the weight that I gained is gone and took another 2 pounds with it.  I lost a total of 3.8 pounds this week and a total since the new plan’s introduction of 6.8 pounds.  Overall, I really like this plan and am making it work for me.  This is not always easy and it isn’t going to be, but I am going to figure out how to make it work for me. 

This week I am going to work on trying to focus on doing meatless meals.  I have found something that I really enjoy at the Greek restaurant that is meatless.  It is a veggie pita (bell pepper, onion, tomatoes) with hummus.  It’s super tasty and I’m thinking I can figure out how to make this for myself along with some other tasty no meat options.  I’ve looked at some pinwheels that I can whip up for the kids/hubby and me and some veggie wraps.  I'm hoping to make it a good week again and hoping to continue these "meatless" habits into other meals each week.  

My step goal will hopefully increase again this week.  So far, I have hit it everyday this week and plan on hitting it today as well.  I suspect I will hit 5,000 steps next week for my daily goal.  I know I can do it.  I hope y'all are moving forward with your goals.  Have a fabulous weekend!

Monday, January 11, 2016

Making a better ME Monday, 01/11/2016

Goals are subject to change without notice, right?  I am trying to only have fruits and veggies this week.  As such, I didn’t prepare any eggs and such.  I came to work prepared though!  I have 2 juices (DS15 prepared juices for both of us last night) for snacks and I brought Borscht that my sweet DH prepared last night.  I also brought an apple, banana, 2 halos, broccoli and baby carrots and carrot chips.  I thought I would steam the broccoli and carrot chips.  Tonight, I will likely put together a veggie soup and some roasted veggies.  If anyone has other suggestions, I would love to hear them! 

We got up (as a family) and tried to go to the Rec Center.  By the time we arrived, however, all the machines (aside from the stair steppers) were taken.  We are trying to come up with a schedule that works for everyone, and we really thought getting a workout in first thing in the morning would be the best option.  However, unless we are waiting on them when they open, I’m not sure we’ll be able to get a machine.  I just want to make sure we get some sort of workout in. 

Our weekend was good overall.  We purchased a freezer so I'm excited about being able to get some casseroles prepared and get some additional foods prepared for future use.  I am excited about being able to make food for my family and not have to worry about eating out so much!

Hope you are having a great week!

Friday, January 8, 2016


So, I had my first gain since starting the new program.  I gained 1.8 as of my weigh in last night.  My weight is currently 202.8 lbs.  While I am not thrilled with the scale going in the wrong direction, I know I can’t focus on that.  I can only move forward.  For me, moving forward means meal prepping/meal planning.  I am honestly pondering moving back to Simply Filling so that I can write down my food in my 12 week journal without worrying about how many Smart Points it is other than the occasional treat.  I feel like that may work for me right now, but I haven’t decided completely yet.  That may need to be my focus during the day and have whatever is planned for dinner with my family.  I know I just need to tweak this program to work for me.

Goals for this week:

  • MEAL PREP tomorrow.  This will include carrots, eggs, and veggies.
  • Trying to hit my step goal 5 days out of 7.
  • Focus on my water intake.

 What are your goals for this week?  

Monday, January 4, 2016

Making a better ME Monday, 01/04/2016

Wow!  Did I really just type that??  Seriously, time has just flown by for me in 2015 and already this year.  I won't lie and say that I wish 2015 was longer or anything like that.  I had two friends lose parents and a FB friend that passed just between Christmas day and New Year's Day, not to mention the friends that were diagnosed with cancer and things like that.  I wish it were easy to make things better, but as we know, there are no easy fixes.  This goes for weight loss and exercise, as well as getting organized or meal planning.    To that end, I've really been trying to make sure I meal prep.  I wasn't feeling 100% on Saturday (the day I have been trying to meal prep) so I decided to wait until Sunday to meal prep, which didn't turn out quite the way I planned.  My DS25 had a blowout and needed my car.  I had enough time to go to the store and start eggs in the oven when he called to ask.  I don't feel totally prepared, but having the eggs and having stuff to make lunch out of, I feel much better than if I were not at all prepared.  I am determined to make some changes to allow me to meet goal.  Things I have realized:

  • I need to have a back up plan;
  • I need to get into the habit of checking my FitBit Surge and get into a routine to charge it.
I have to admit that I do like that I do not have to push any buttons or anything when I get ready to go to sleep.  It's quite nice and convenient.  

I will have to prepare some things tonight to be better prepared for later in the week.  I like being prepared and, at least, having the ingredients to put meals together without too much stress.  Are you a "meal by meal", "day by day", "plan but not specify time/day of eating" or "preplan all the way" kind of person?

Have a blessed Monday!