I have felt a little disconnected lately. I think part of it is because I failed to track for a few days and pain/stress, etc. just got in the way of what I was trying to do. I’ve really had to remind myself over the last few days, seemingly since weigh in, that I am not in this to be perfect. The only perfect person that walked the earth was Jesus Christ and I am certainly not on the same as Him. What I can do is do the best I can with what I have each day and make the best choice I can. Like Saturday evening, after our church service at our new start up church, they announced that they were going to dinner. DH decided we had to go because he hadn’t been to that restaurant in ages. I know that Mexican food is a weakness for me. While I know I probably ate more tortilla chips than I should have, but it seemed to take forever to get our food because of our large group. Ultimately, though, I am not displeased with my choices while there (aside from the chips) because DH and I split our meal instead of trying to eat a meal by myself. I did have too many chips and queso as well, but I can't change it. I can only move forward.
I think sometimes I overwhelm myself with all the things that I want to do/learn/haven’t done in years and want to do again and I try to take them all on at one time. Sometimes I need to remember that I don’t have enough time to do everything at one time, but I can set aside a time slot to renew my passion for whatever it is…sewing, crocheting, embroidering, etc. I have enough time to do everything I want…just not at the same time. I have gone back to putting things in my day runner or on my calendar in Google…or both.
Do you ever feel like that? Like you have so many things you want to do and you just want to do it all right now? One step at a time, right? We can’t be perfect at everything…most times, I’m not perfect at anything, but if I am improving, that’s a positive.
I have decided to start another 100 day challenge. I am still learning about myself, but I am a work in progress. My goals are similar to what they were before. I am trying to include some Bible study in there as well.