Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Weekends are hard!

Reflecting back over the weekend, it has occurred to me that weekends seem to be more difficult for me than the rest of the week.  I guess it's because all of the family is home and there is really no set time to eat or workout.  Sadly, when DH and I tried to hit yoga over the weekend, he though I was watching the clock and I thought he was.  This meant when he realized what time it was, we didn't have time to get to class.  

When I was working, I had a schedule and would have my meals and snacks generally at the same time each day.  I also had a specific time to workout.  Unfortunately, since I have been unemployed, I haven't had a schedule like that to stick to.  I am trying to get back into a schedule for my own peace of mind and waistline!

I'm a woman determined to get back on track and continue with the positive changes.  Make those positive changes habits.  Does anyone else have the same problem about staying on track on the weekends?  I'm definitely open to suggestions.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Am I just ordinary?

You are *anything* but ordinary. - Ellis Grey, Grey's Anatomy

I have been  watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy, starting with Season 1.  I recently saw the episode where Meredith dies and she sees Denny and the bomb squad guy and her mom's scrub room nurse and her dog, Doc.  They are all telling her that she needs to go back, but she's not listening because she's not ready to yet.  She needs to deal with what is going on in her head before she goes back and part of that is hearing her mom, Ellis Grey, who was a force to be reckoned with at Seattle Grace and any other hospital, tell her that she was ordinary.  I can't imagine how that would feel.  My mother didn't raise me to be just ordinary.  The Father above didn't create me to be just ordinary.  I am special.  I am one of a kind.  There is no one on this earth exactly like me.  Sometimes I think we just need a reminder that we are not simply ordinary.  We are extraordinary.  The Father created us with a purpose and a plan for each of our lives.  I don't always know what the purpose or plan for my life is, but I walk by faith that He has one.  What I do know is that I need to follow through with my healthy lifestyle changes in order to be prepared for whatever He sends my way.  

I am blessed.  I woke up this morning and He started me on my way.  I have a roof over my head, food on my table and a wonderful family, extended family, church family and friends.  In addition, my heart seems to be working fine, my blood pressure is under control, my legs work just fine, despite the occasional joint pain.  How can I not be blessed?  Soon, I will be starting a new position.  Do I have it yet?  No, but I have faith that I will.  There are many times I just have to walk by faith and not by sight because if I didn't, I'd be one depressed woman.

Goals for next week:

Plan my meals to try to get the healthy guidelines in.
Track my food.
Workout everyday.

Just remember....

You are *anything* but ordinary!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Moving into 2013...Challenges for myself

I saw this on FB and started thinking about it a little bit.  I know I am a child of the King.  He has great plans for me, even though I may not know what those are.  No matter what struggles I may face, the war is already won.  Jesus loved me enough to die on a cross for me.  What an amazing love that is!

The other thing that I thought about is that I haven't really been making the best choices for myself lately.  I've only been given one body.  With only one body, I should be taking better care of it than I am.  With that in mind, I am trying to take steps to take better care of me.  Ultimately, I want to lose 52 pounds this year.  However, what I realized from this year is that I need to take each day as it comes and focus on that day.  I can plan my meals in advance, but I also realize that life gets in the way sometimes and I need a back-up plan just in case.  If I take it one day at a time instead of focusing on the bigger goal, I can handle it without getting overwhelmed.  Each day I strive to get my workout in and then focus on what I am putting in my mouth.  If I am re-focusing my energies on that day instead of looking too far ahead, I will be less likely to get overwhelmed.  I have faith that I can do this.  I may need a little support to get over the hump sometimes, but I know I can do this.  Everyday is a choice that I make.  I saw a post from a guy that said:
"I don't want to wake up a 5am for workouts.
I don't want to work out for 2 hours a day.
I don't want to write down what I eat.
I don't want to limit my food.
I don't want to think about my health every day.

But I don't want to be 400 pounds ever again.
And that trumps any "I don't" I could ever think of."

After seeing that, I thought about myself at my highest weight, which was just over 200 pounds.  For those of you that know me, or can imagine, just over 200 pounds on my 4'10" frame, was hard on my body.  Even now, not being that weight, my joints hurt...my knees, especially the one that I previously had surgery on, my ankles, my hips.  I know what I have to do to change it...I have to move.  When I moved before and was eating healthier, I didn't hurt this bad.  So, in the beginning, I may have to hurt a little to get back to where I once was weight wise, but I know when I get there, I will feel so much better!

Challenges for 2013:

at least 1 mile for each day 2013
focus on each day as it comes
track my food and try not to overwhelm myself with looking too far in the future.
each day is a new day to refocus and refuel
remember to eat to live, not live to eat
remember that God is in control, He has broad shoulders and He can handle my problems